A promise unfulfilled  

Posted by Nitu in ,

Last night I saw a dream ..of a litle girl..of her giggles..of her quick steps..of her nameless exuberance radiating a house. I asked for a water jar..she chimed in before her mom could reach the jar..'Maa..I will do it..I will do it..'..she gripped the jar and refilled the water glasses for everyone. For a moment I felt it was true..for a moment I was lost into a paradise of unbelievables. I could stay that way for ever.

I remained spellbound even after consciousness awakened..long after the morning lights started penetrating through the window panes. The purity of innocent zest was deep enough to defeat all the high decibel noises ushering the day. It had been more than 17 years since the girl in my dream ceased to live on the earth. It has been a long time..with many ups and down..with many people entering and leaving..with many exhaustions and rejuvenations. But there is something time doesn't erase, something a heart never feels tired carrying of. The little girl is one. For she was my little sister, the "noor" of my family, darling of the neighbors.

When I was 11, she died of an undiagnosed disease at the age of 5. I promised her to buy a doll, a promise that was never fulfilled. The only thing I could do was to lay my piggy-banked amount beside her burial place. The act of redemption was for me more than her. To buy a doll I would need to go to a nearby town which was about 10-11 miles away. But I never ran those miles.

We hope the loved ones will be around for ever. Sadly many times they come only for a season, only for a reason. Hope is so misplaced sometimes. We postpone something for the next time, next occasion because we hope there will be a next time; not knowing what tomorrow holds. The next time never arrives sometimes.

It is never late to say someone how much you care about, how much you love. But make sure you are doing it today. If that requires running an extra mile, then let's run. Imagine what would be the value of a "Taj Mahal", if in her lifetime, Mamtaj never got a true feeling of Shahjahan's profound love.

We may have seven colors in our heart for someone. But we need a little more than a heart to put them together into a rainbow..to make them visible. And I believe it is worth doing so.

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20 comments

This is one of my favorite and your "the best" post:)

U said it so well- a reason and a season. U know what, they always live in many things we do or reflect back to the days of cherished moments. Been ther and I know.

Many people always complain either be parents, family or friends. But you only feel and know them more when they are not with you. Its true and its better to keep the treasure live than to miss one day.

Take care and be proud of what you do:)

May 18, 2008 at 7:41 AM

Hi Nitu

I love yr blog..the simplicty is AWESOME!..

Thanks a ton for visiting my blog chweety!!

CheeRz,
Aayushi

May 18, 2008 at 8:26 AM

very true.'next time' may not b always dere fr us.
nice one dere.

May 18, 2008 at 9:37 AM

really touched me down there; it was almost as if the lil' girl's pigtals tugged at my heart..
lIL' THings is life do matter, n what better way than to express these lil' things hen we breathe in n bretahe out :)

show ya love today :)
awesum!

May 18, 2008 at 9:43 AM

**But we need a little more than a heart to put them together into a rainbow..to make them visible.

I so agree Nitu!

Keshi.

May 18, 2008 at 7:19 PM

touchy stuff........ :)
Awesome ......
ur best post.......till date.. :)
keep posting u are doing heck of a job :)

May 18, 2008 at 8:43 PM

hmm.... a heart rending post..

May 18, 2008 at 10:09 PM

We hope the loved ones will be around for ever. Sadly many times they come only for a season, only for a reason. Hope is so misplaced sometimes. We postpone something for the next time, next occasion because we hope there will be a next time; not knowing what tomorrow holds. The next time never arrives sometimes.


HOW TRUE...I HOPE ALL OF US REALISE THIS AT THE RIGHT TIME!!:)

May 19, 2008 at 4:20 AM

My son as gotten to the age in which he doesn't want his mom or me to embarrass him in public. And any show of affection he feels will hurt his reputation among his friends. But that doesn't stop me from telling him I love him when I drop him off someplace were he will meet his friends. I just can't imagine him not knowing how I feel whenever we part.

May 19, 2008 at 5:47 PM

@Priya,

Beyond the loss lies our cherished moments. I too believe so.
"But you only feel and know them more when they are not with you."
You know, I almost inserted this sentence in the post itself!
Thanks for the sweet words :)

@Aayushi,

Aaw..little genious here :) Thank you so much.
If I can convey a message in simple way, I try for that.
Keep coming haan..

@Debasish,
Thank you.

@Rantravereflect
Thank you. So many times we don't give a second thought to vent out our anger.
But in contrast, why then we hesitate to show our love and affection!!

@Keshi,

"..more than a heart.." is the toughest challenge we face probably.
Nevertheless, worthy do aim for.

@Sachin,

U r touching my heart too dear. But rotten potatoes may arrive sometimes from my cup:)
Plz hang on then haan.

@Amrita,

Seems we all hv a delicate corner in our hearts.
Thnks dear.

@Gunj,

Indeed, we do realize it. But then we ignore often.

@Beach,

As a kid, I found my grand mother's sloppy hugs and kisses annoying, but now when she is gone
and I am grown up, those are the moments that come back whenever I recall my childhood. Believe me, it
leaves me smiling silently. Never dampen your heart. What you are doing will be a priceless treasure
of his young age after a decade.

May 20, 2008 at 9:57 PM

Very heartwarming!
And very true too…after all, in the end, it’s safe to say that we did bring joy to each other’s lives…

May 21, 2008 at 4:35 AM

Your post made me think about a lot of stuff...Sad and meloncholic.

May 22, 2008 at 4:11 AM

@Vartika,
We all ought to add a little happiness to each other's life. It is just that sometimes we r just engrossed in ourselves.

@Crasiezt,

We ought to exercise some intelligence in thinking..don't be melancholic plz..I will try to make it up by putting a hilarious post soon.

May 23, 2008 at 9:56 PM

I read this post Now..
I tell you..its fab..
and even I agree wth the statement-->>
But we need a little more than a heart to put them together into a rainbow..to make them visible.


:)
Be a guest at my online abode soon!! =)

May 25, 2008 at 10:56 PM

I loved this post!Really touching and thought provoking!!
Keep penning!!

Regards
Incognito

May 30, 2008 at 10:34 PM

"Hope is so misplaced sometimes. "

i never thought about it that way.. so true now that you mention it.

May 31, 2008 at 12:30 AM

@Aayushi,

I thought you read during ur first visit to the post!!!
Anyway, thnx that u did it finally n liked it.

@Incognito,

Thanks. Sure, I will do :)

@Noelia,
Well, I guess it was true before I uttered these words..jst like apples used to fall before Newton discovered law of gravity.. :)

May 31, 2008 at 1:44 AM

That brought tears to my eyes.May the little angel always be happy wherever she is.Don't despair,you did what you could.She is always with you.

TC.

June 3, 2008 at 6:48 AM

u bliv it doing so...cos u ddint do it earlier...well pple learn frm experiences..:))

nd a gud one u have shared here..

bt 1 thng i realy felt..was d echo of ur guilt thru dis post...m i being correct???

June 7, 2008 at 8:54 AM

kal ho na ho....

June 7, 2008 at 8:55 AM

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